Around Chicks😒

In my head it’s like this....
Every time I am around a chick
With me it’s either hit or miss
Whether I’m happy or consistent.
Some bullshit always seems to happen.
Like I don’t appreciate her enough
Or I’m down on some really bad luck.
It matters if she is there right ?
To help support me through this mental fight.
I’m not the only one.
I have my fair share of mistakes I’ve done.
To them I’m the one is draining
My mood is like it always raining
Grey clouds and all that.
Chest hurts feels like an heart attack.
I am only human but not enough for you.
Not consistent to see it through.
You leave at the worst of times.
Finding someone else at the drop of a dime.
Then you wonder why I don’t smile.
Why I am not heard from in a while.
I am learning, unifying the communication.
It’s hard for me to do in this generation.
Where loyalty means nothing
Where people always getting into something.
Here I am in the middle of it.
I’m getting too old for this shit.