Am I a Joke to you ?

Sometimes I really believe that people see me as a joke.
Always saying that I get hurt the most .
This situation strangles me enough for me to choke.
What you fail to understand is that I am actually woke.
I do what I have to do.
Regardless if it has anything to do with you.
I have to push through
Even though I’m not there
Don’t despair
I’m not one of those who vanish into thin air.
I do my best to be there and understand.
What more do you expect of  me, I am just a man.
The broken man who does what he can.
If you can’t see that, I don’t know what else I can do for you to see.
It’s not all about me.
Understand for me it takes a lot to be heard.
I would be grateful if you understand my words.