I’m not okay😐😐😐

No no no, I’m not okay.

I won’t lie to you this day.
When y’all ask me that what I can I say?
Allow me to speak the truth if I may?
For two months it has been not easy.
For starters I’ve picked up a new habit, drinking.
Becoming the drunken master was for fun at first.
Having 3 cans  yeah it just got worse.
I do that so I can fall asleep.
I don’t have any peace.
How can you have peace if you don’t have faith ?
How can I hope to find any in this toxic ass place?
The cause to the effect.
How my actions affect what may happen next.
So to answer the question that you have for me.
I’m not okay and I’m not sure when I will be.
Savvvy.