The final post.

This is Steven Hunt aka Jynex Sol.
If you are reading this post, then I regret to inform you I will no longer be on social media. I know you’ve heard me say it before but I need to take this seriously now and just go away. Reason being for this post is because I’ve been going through something for the past 3 months and it’s been affecting me greatly . At work at home and I just couldn’t not deal with it any more. So I made decision to write this out to you out there on both Facebook and Instagram.  This will be the last post I will write. I’m not kidding . This not a joke. This is me wanting attention because I take my health seriously .
My mental health has not been great.
Too many memories and too many triggers.  This is so I am no longer toxic to those who consider me toxic.  I didn’t wake each day and decided to be toxic or have toxic traits or behaviors.  Stubbornness is there but I do believe in justice and the way I am currently viewed is bullshit. However I do see the tendencies.  My life is my own priority and I have to do what I needs to be done. I’m grateful to have met people and some of those people have seen the good in me. I really do appreciate that. Also change comes with time but to me sometimes change is like a foreign language . I have to practice In order to get better.  It’s not going to come automatically . To see me as a good man overall, I will admit to the fact most of my life has been a struggle.
I haven’t been home in twelve years.
10 years and seven different relationship happen and finished. The fault was mine. I  couldn’t see past what I didn’t know . I only know because I lost.  Just like when I take a test and fail. I only begin to understand afterwards. Hopefully after reading this. You can understand somewhat on why I chose to go away.
Your words and concerns were helpful. Others well.... get over it.... you know like I wish I could but you can’t see past the negative. It’s true I do write a lot of sad things. Well, because I’m sad. I’m not trying to bring anyone else down . That be the same as trying to infect someone intentionally. I could not and would not do that to any you. If I’m toxic to you then that toxicity has a source. If I can identify the source, then I can solve the problem.
How could you know what’s going on
now if  you aren’t physically here or even trying to comprehend me past your own understanding. Being in my shoes is hard but how would you know. I post these things because I want people to know what kind of man I really am.

Damn... it really does suck to be in this room alone. It doesn’t even feel like home.
Now I have to go away. To everyone reading this have a good day . For I have nothing else to say. Other than I’m sorry to you friends, sorry because this is the end. Sorry to those I’ve hurt. Right now I’m hurting even worse. Sry to my family .

I wanted you to be proud of me. I need to leave this all behind. So this end of the post. I leave this here.... I’m not going to kill myself for those  who think that. Okay😔